sorry.

sorry that i want you.
sorry that i need you.
i'm so sorry for everything i feel for you.
if i could i would take all the feelings away.
if i could i would stop hurting.
but i can't. i'm prone to misery.
so deeply engulfed in agony.


FUCK!

Heartache

Teetering on the brink of insanity.
I’m desperately trying to break myself free of a heavy heart & mind.
Too much of nothing bear themselves on these organs.
I want a clear state of mind & a seamless heart.
Seems as though this is a reckless desire.
For a heart never heals & a mind never forgets.

making something out of nothing.

i can appreciate that.

to her.

I stayed up half the night you were in my arms in disbelief.
Wishing it would never be over.
Wishing I could relive it every single day of my life.
Hoping you would feel the same.
Only to have you remind me that I was inadequate.
Only to have you reinstate that you loved someone else & we couldn’t work.
I believe we could.
I mean we would have to.

Because…

You complete me.
Imagine walking this earth knowing that half of you was missing & belonged to someone else.
Imagine the fury you would feel, the desperation flowing through your veins to piece yourself back together.
Imagine your heart beating solely to see the day when you were whole.
Just imagine would you…
Imagine every single thing that resembled some form of love for another human-being sparking up this fire in you that you couldn’t put out, even if you tried.

Trying to dismiss all the feelings I have for you is the most foolish thing I’ve ever done.
Waiting for you to see what I see is feeling like an eternity.
Thinking that you may never see it is killing me.
Every part of me, even down to the microscopic, aches to have you.
Although I can’t…

Forbidden Fruit.